Does anyone even talk about lent anymore?

What’s the point of Lent if you’re just giving up chocolate for 40 days? Where’s the sacrifice?

To me Lent is about giving up something so you can draw closer to GOD. Cause that’s the point right?

It’s the lead up to Easter. The holiday of the bunnies, right? Well not exactly. It’s the time of year we remember the greatest sacrifice ever made. I think because it happened a rather long time ago it’s impact has been diluted. Someone actually died, for me and I feel like I need that reminder more then once a year to truly appreciate it.

Over the past couple months I’ve made the choice to recede from my community, and as an outlet for general life stuff I’ve turned to shopping. Which I feel has distanced myself even more from wanting to connect with the Lord. Consumerism is a sickness.

This Lent season I want to practice minimal spending and more mindfulness about where our money goes and how I spend my time and reconnect with my community.

I was looking for comfort in material things when I know that’s not where peace comes from. This Lent I’m going to TRY running to the arms of GOD instead. I’m human, I’ll probably trip on the way.

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just some evening thoughts

I’ve never been a good writer. I’ve never been convincing with the words I’ve written or said. In fact, I’ve never been much good at anything really. I haven’t had any true talents. No extraordinary skills. Nothing stands out about me, I find myself rather plain.

I’ve always been the odd one out. Never really fit in with anyone or any kind of crowd. It’s uncomfortable growing up feeling like you don’t belong. For the most part I don’t have that one female friend who is my person. Most of my friendship are because of work, or shared husband’s friends, but I don’t have that “I’ll die for you” friendship with another female that I’ve longed for basically as long as I can remember.

I’ve always been a mix of personality traits. Kind of creative but really not creative at all. Outgoing but also cautious. I would take these personality quizzes and you’re given 4 options, I ended up splitting evenly over 3 of them. I never had my own personality fit.

You know that one toy you’ve played with as a kid that has all the different shaped blocks slipping into it’s rightful spot to join the others? I feel like I’m a shape that doesn’t have a designated place for me to slip through to join the rest.

These are just some things I’ve been pondering the last few nights, along with some other things that I want to share in this space.