Okay I know I should have written this last year at the beginning of December but I couldn’t. I didn’t know what I wanted for this season, I was so sleep deprived as any new mom so realistically I just wanted sleep.
I have now caught up on all that sleep as Evan and I have managed to sleep train Cornelia over the crazy busy holiday season and I’m feeling a bit like myself again.
Although, I don’t feel the same as I had before Cornelia came to us. I forget just about everything which is unlike me, I’m starting to need coffee each morning, I want to dress differently and just my everyday everything just seems completely altered. I needed to give myself time to recover and decide what I wanted for this next year. I’ve had a lot of time to reflect on myself and just even 2017.
I felt like 2017 was a year of anxiousness. Evan and I pretty much spent the whole year impatiently waiting on our little babe to arrive in September. And there was so much pain in the world and in our newsfeeds (Trump’s inauguration, Hurricanes, Wildfires in Canada and USA, Vegas shooting, North Korea, extremist marches, the list goes on…) There was no way to avoid it.
I was seeing was a lot of trends, things becoming popular across the globe because of the internet, everything was moving so fast (ideas, videos, memes, clothing, etc). I feel like I’m suffocating in screen time and I need to come up for air. (I think we all need to come up for air, but that’s not the point, right now).
I need to find MY air. What do I like, I don’t want to buy a shirt because everyone else is wearing that shirt, I don’t want to listen to that radio station because everyone likes that music. Do you understand my point?
I want to get off social media and off the internet because it drives me crazy. Not all platforms make me crazy, like this little space that is Simply Scholing. And I really can’t give up Instagram, but I don’t want those “Instagram mom models” to influence what I like. Maybe I’m insane and what I want isn’t achievable, but I really do want to try.
I want to read a book or go on an adventure, I’ve always wanted to go to the Othello Tunnels so maybe we’ll go as a family this Spring. Just get away from all the fast and furious.
I love all things vintage and often feel like I was born in the wrong era, so maybe fill my home with some curated treasures or dress a little differently. Basically just finding what I really like not based on anyone else’s opinions.
Another thing for 2018…
(I don’t normally share anything too personal like spiritual things, but I’m gonna share this.) In December I felt called to be more generous in 2018. I’ve never been good at sharing, maybe it’s the oldest child in me. I kept hearing God tell me I need to exercise generosity so I’m going to be working on that.
Moving on to my Winter goals…
So the things I want to work on this season are…
- A bullet journal, which will keep my thoughts together and be a diary for me, but mostly Cornelia and any of her small, exciting milestones.
- Okay, I know I gave a mini rant about how I need to get away from the internet, but Building this blog. I enjoy being in this space and sharing, even if no one were to read my words. I simply need to find the balance of being present here but also being able to turn it off.
- Being better stewards to the Earth in our home (cloth diapers and wipes for Cornelia, biodegradable soaps, being aware of plastic packaging, etc.)
Do you agree with me? Do you also feel like our world is moving so fast and you can’t catch your breath? Are there certain things you wish to achieve this year or season? Let me know by leaving me a comment!